43 & On Fire: Boudoir, Rebirth, and Reclaiming My Worth
I just turned 43. And damn… what a year 42 was.
I won’t sugarcoat it—this past year cracked me wide open.
In January, I lost both of my senior dogs just five days apart. The grief was guttural. The kind of heartbreak that forces you to sit still with your pain, question your purpose, and soften into surrender.
Around the same time, I had to face a painful truth: the family I had spent my entire life trying to stay connected to, prove myself to, belong to... never really saw me. Not the way I needed to be seen. That kind of realization doesn’t just sting—it shatters illusions you’ve built your entire identity around.
And so, for the last year and a half, my life felt like it was on pause.
I needed space to grieve, to unravel, to heal. And that healing journey wasn’t linear or pretty—but it was necessary.
Shedding My Skin: The Year of the Snake 🐍
It’s poetic really, that we’re in the Year of the Snake—a year of shedding skin, letting go of the old, and stepping boldly into the new.
That’s exactly what I’ve done.
I shed the pain. The grief. The old stories that said I wasn’t smart enough. Not good enough. That my dreams were too much or not for me. I stopped trying to prove my worth to people who never valued me the way I deserved.
I let it all burn.
Because I’m a Leo, baby. And I rise in the flames.
Rebirth Looks Good on Me (And She Wears Pink 💕)
For most of my life, I dressed in black. It was armor. A soft, silent signal that I was protecting something tender underneath. And don’t get me wrong—black still slaps. But when women start to heal? When they start to come home to themselves?
They fall in love with pink again.
Not because it’s soft or sweet—but because it’s powerful. Pink is the color of rebirth. Of joy. Of unapologetic feminine fire. And I am deep, deep in my pink girl era.
Building Dreams from the Ashes
June marked the first time in over a year that I felt ready to move forward again. And when I tell you the Universe showed up for me—it showed up with backup dancers.
✨ Two adventure boudoir sessions—fully booked in the Rockies and Drumheller.
✨ My Costa Rica Retreat is finally happening (after dreaming about it for three years) thanks to a magical collaboration with a past client and local yoga queen.
✨ Moon Ceremonies return this September—something I’ve longed to do since COVID shut them down.
✨I walked on fire - literally I did a ceremonial fire walk.. And you can bet I’ll be doing a project next year where I talk a bunch of you with me to walk on fire too.
And through all the heartbreak, one thing remained steady—my business.
Even when I felt stuck, I still showed up. Because every woman I photograph is another life changed. And even when I felt frozen in my own pain, my work helped launch other women forward.
The Real Reason I Do This Work
When I went no contact with my family, it hit me:
I had been trying to prove my worth to people who never saw it.
But the truth is—I’ve always been enough.
And now, I don’t need to prove anything to anyone.
I get to do this work because I love it.
Because it’s powerful.
Because I’m damn good at it.
My superpower?
Helping women see in themselves what the world has tried so hard to hide:
Their worth. Their light. Their power.
Because when a woman remembers who she is? The world better watch out.
She stops letting people use her.
She stops dimming her light to make others comfortable.
She starts taking up space, speaking her truth, and setting the world on fire with her brilliance.
This Next Chapter? 🔥 It’s Pure Leo Energy.
I’m entering 43 with fire in my belly, clarity in my vision, and a whole new level of badass energy.
💫 My art is evolving.
💫 My clients are transforming deeper than ever.
💫 My relationship with my husband has grown stronger and more beautiful through our shared grief and healing.
💫 And my business? She’s in her glow-up era.
This next year is going to be straight fire. And I hope some of you come along for the ride.
So if you're feeling stuck, lost, or like life’s been holding you down, hear this:
You are not broken. You are becoming.
Let’s shed the old. Let’s claim the fire.
Let’s dance in pink.
And let’s make this next chapter the hottest one yet.
With love, fire, and a whole lot of pink,
Sarina Rose
